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Wrath
Apr. 8th, 2007 | 03:00 am
The writings are done from the deepst of thought.
Full of meaning, full of distraught.
I want things to be normal again
Or what is called normal, though they are not.
Nothing is normal, nothing is right
we hold back what we can, so we do not fight
the meaning of the words hold value in many
there will always be true meaning in sight.
Loss of feeling, loss of love, fear of fall
will always be a factor to all
look into my eyes, maybe you will see
the giant of fear standing oh so tall
Never again will I be sane
Never again will I not want the rain
Never again will I hold back
Never again will I hold in this Wrath
Full of meaning, full of distraught.
I want things to be normal again
Or what is called normal, though they are not.
Nothing is normal, nothing is right
we hold back what we can, so we do not fight
the meaning of the words hold value in many
there will always be true meaning in sight.
Loss of feeling, loss of love, fear of fall
will always be a factor to all
look into my eyes, maybe you will see
the giant of fear standing oh so tall
Never again will I be sane
Never again will I not want the rain
Never again will I hold back
Never again will I hold in this Wrath
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(no subject)
Mar. 18th, 2007 | 10:30 pm
It fucked up like it always does. The pain just comes again. Why was I so stupid to think it would last. Why was I so stupid to think that she'd think it was okay. Why was i such an idiot.
I keep thanking God for my friends and my family. But why do I seem to fuck up all of that with a single blow.
lost in words of selfishness and concern.
Between the lines are hate and decite
left are the memories i once had
being alone never felt so good.
I can't change the past. I never could. I desearve everythign that happens to me
Im in such a state that i can no longer type. my mind is blank. no words to say. nothing
it feels good
I keep thanking God for my friends and my family. But why do I seem to fuck up all of that with a single blow.
lost in words of selfishness and concern.
Between the lines are hate and decite
left are the memories i once had
being alone never felt so good.
I can't change the past. I never could. I desearve everythign that happens to me
Im in such a state that i can no longer type. my mind is blank. no words to say. nothing
it feels good
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Cry
Jan. 19th, 2007 | 09:06 pm
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
Thinking back on the times that I tryed
to be accepted and to be one of the guys
immortalized,
that how I wanted it to be
but all I got was pain and misery
these things
they never really made sense to me
until this night, I put up a fight
with myself. This hell, in my mind so easy to find
My refuge is this so hard not to miss
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
I want these things, this passion, this glory
so everyone can remember my story
of how I went down without a frown in this town
of refuge, population just me, so deperatly wanting to be set free
from this nightmare, this blank stare, upon my face
Thinking bout it, it's so hard just to erase.
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
Right now all I want is love, sent from above, I want this because
all I feel now is empty, this void it tempts me,
to to the things I swore not to do, if you know what i mean just shout "me too!"
The one thing in life that I hold dearly, is seeing my friends and keeping them near me
that is starting to fade away, I want it to stay , I said I want it to stay.
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
These words are from my deepest imagination
my own child, my thoughts, my creation
inturprit them as you will, I'll be here by ya'll stil.
I am not be the king of tact, that's how I act, I hate that fact
I want it to end, I want to ammend
the things in my life that just aren't Godsend
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
Thinking back on the times that I tryed
to be accepted and to be one of the guys
immortalized,
that how I wanted it to be
but all I got was pain and misery
these things
they never really made sense to me
until this night, I put up a fight
with myself. This hell, in my mind so easy to find
My refuge is this so hard not to miss
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
I want these things, this passion, this glory
so everyone can remember my story
of how I went down without a frown in this town
of refuge, population just me, so deperatly wanting to be set free
from this nightmare, this blank stare, upon my face
Thinking bout it, it's so hard just to erase.
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
Right now all I want is love, sent from above, I want this because
all I feel now is empty, this void it tempts me,
to to the things I swore not to do, if you know what i mean just shout "me too!"
The one thing in life that I hold dearly, is seeing my friends and keeping them near me
that is starting to fade away, I want it to stay , I said I want it to stay.
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
These words are from my deepest imagination
my own child, my thoughts, my creation
inturprit them as you will, I'll be here by ya'll stil.
I am not be the king of tact, that's how I act, I hate that fact
I want it to end, I want to ammend
the things in my life that just aren't Godsend
There are days that go by unnoticed
without fear, lies, hate or focus
Then there are days when you wish you could die
take back the things that made you lie
But all you can do is sit back and cry
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To you.
Nov. 13th, 2006 | 12:08 am
To the one I love : I am becoming more aware of my surroundings. They haunt me. They speak to me. Let me know they exist. There are two types of surrounding: The ones that remind me of you, and the ones that don't. Those that speak, I put aside for now. I want to bury them, but I know I will regret it. I never thought I could make you fly, with your broken wings. You are one person I cannot fix. And I must except that.
To the one I hurt: I want to forget the things I did. I want to run away from you. I want you to forget about me completely. But i know that won't happen. it's my curse. Nobody seems to forget me. I leave a mark upon there hearts that stays. I brand them with my presence. I never meant for it to go that far. I never meant to make you think I could save you.
To my dear friend: It has been a while since we spoke. The past is long forgotten now. I wish to see you again. I miss your presence in my life. You were the one that changed me the most. You made me think I was something. You brought out the best in me. Will you accept this offer?
Sincerely,
G. Carver Rath
To the one I hurt: I want to forget the things I did. I want to run away from you. I want you to forget about me completely. But i know that won't happen. it's my curse. Nobody seems to forget me. I leave a mark upon there hearts that stays. I brand them with my presence. I never meant for it to go that far. I never meant to make you think I could save you.
To my dear friend: It has been a while since we spoke. The past is long forgotten now. I wish to see you again. I miss your presence in my life. You were the one that changed me the most. You made me think I was something. You brought out the best in me. Will you accept this offer?
Sincerely,
G. Carver Rath
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The cold
Oct. 25th, 2006 | 02:27 pm
The cold bites me like a wretched hound. It calls to me like a soothing voice. It comes to me like a forgotten past. I want things to change. I want things to happen. The cold will come. The bite will sting. But things will come. Things will happen.
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The Taker
Oct. 15th, 2006 | 01:15 am
mood: 
angry
You are like a theif in the night. You take from me what i desperately cling to. I try my hardest to hold on, but you take it so easily from my grasps. I can't wait for the day of your demise. The day I stand there and watch you bleed. The day i slit your throat, and remove your hands, so you can take from me no more. I hate you, oh Dark Taker. You are evil, pure evil. You take, and leave me a wreck. You break me down. I thought i was rid of you, but you just keep coming, and taking from me what i hold dear the most. My paradise is yet to be compleate, the day will come of it's uprise. That day, I promise you this: YOU WILL DIE!
Oh Dark Taker, you come so menacingly, you know you can't be stopped, and you know that i have the knowledge that you can't be stopped. Oh how I hate you. You come and take yet another from my grasps, not having a care about what it will do to me. Your demise will be great, your death even sweeter. Your rotten stench will be no more. You will no longer be able to take away from me what I tried so hard to get. That day will be infamous.
Oh how I long for the day of your downfall, oh vile beast. Oh wretched fiend. Oh foul vermon. Oh hateful wretch. You will surely pay for this. I tryed so hard to keep her in my grasps. I tryed to keep the dance going. But you interfeared, you destroyed the bond. You stole my happiness from me. I will watch you come today. I will watch you take her away from me, just like you have before. And this day, I will swear revenge on you. I will bring you great pain, greater than what you bring me. Everytime I see your face, I want to turn and vomit. But I can't. Another curse you bring upon me.
The curses you bring are the most vile things I know of. Depression, loneliness, pain. I want you to suffer with these just as I have, I want you to go back to the Hellish pit you came from. But you won't listen. You will just keep on doing this to me. I will find a way to kill you. This is no lie.
Oh how I long for your downfall, you fucking bastard.
Oh Dark Taker, you come so menacingly, you know you can't be stopped, and you know that i have the knowledge that you can't be stopped. Oh how I hate you. You come and take yet another from my grasps, not having a care about what it will do to me. Your demise will be great, your death even sweeter. Your rotten stench will be no more. You will no longer be able to take away from me what I tried so hard to get. That day will be infamous.
Oh how I long for the day of your downfall, oh vile beast. Oh wretched fiend. Oh foul vermon. Oh hateful wretch. You will surely pay for this. I tryed so hard to keep her in my grasps. I tryed to keep the dance going. But you interfeared, you destroyed the bond. You stole my happiness from me. I will watch you come today. I will watch you take her away from me, just like you have before. And this day, I will swear revenge on you. I will bring you great pain, greater than what you bring me. Everytime I see your face, I want to turn and vomit. But I can't. Another curse you bring upon me.
The curses you bring are the most vile things I know of. Depression, loneliness, pain. I want you to suffer with these just as I have, I want you to go back to the Hellish pit you came from. But you won't listen. You will just keep on doing this to me. I will find a way to kill you. This is no lie.
Oh how I long for your downfall, you fucking bastard.
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Love has no Destination
Sep. 20th, 2006 | 10:59 pm
mood: 
artistic
Love has no destination, only a course. I want to take you away off the normal path. Away to the place i have taken few. I want to show you how I feel. I want to tell you. I want to hold you forever. In this place, it can happen. I want to take you there. All you have to do is trust me. Trust me and we will go.
I want to say what's inside my heart. I want to say it. But I fear it is too early to say it. So I will keep it safe until the right moment. It will be locked into my heart, until you say the words that will unlock it.
I write this for you now.
G. Carver Rath
I want to say what's inside my heart. I want to say it. But I fear it is too early to say it. So I will keep it safe until the right moment. It will be locked into my heart, until you say the words that will unlock it.
I write this for you now.
G. Carver Rath
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Aug. 19th, 2006 | 12:12 pm
mood: 
loved
Our talkes remind me of the days with her. The days of insight, grace, passion. I long to see it again. Your words are like ambrosia to my ears. I laugh, I ponder. These words are filled with benevolent charm. A grace that can be matched by no other. I think i will soon ask you to fly with me. Fly to the place where we can live with no worries. Free from the outside world. We take only what we want. And get only what life throws at us. Let us take our time, and waste our lives together.
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Alone.. for now
Aug. 17th, 2006 | 12:15 am
mood: 
gloomy
I am alone... for now. There are things i regret. Are they to be regreted? Or are they to be used to fuel the fire inside me. I dont want the darkness to come out. It haunts me. It thives in me. I want it gone.
My confessions are these
Recently life has been a blur, like many times before.
But what if I had the power, that could make it all restore.
I would use it to right my wrongs, to undo the pain.
Even on that special day, I would make it rain.
I would take back my mistakes, take back my lies
open my self up, take off my disguise.
And for you, my dear, I will let it flow
from me to you, from head to toe.
It breaks me to feel this way. I thought i loved you. I thought i would be with you. I was wrong. My eden is fading. Won't someone rescue me from the hellish pit it is becoming. Save me. I am alone. For now.
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One last Flight
Jun. 12th, 2006 | 09:50 pm
mood: crushed
We had our fun. But now we must part ways. I hope desperatly to see you again. I will always love you my sweet.. always.
G. Carver Rath
G. Carver Rath
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And then..
Feb. 26th, 2006 | 11:22 am
mood: creative
We danced. Yes we danced. But then there was more. And it was a good thing. So shall we dance again? Tonight maybe? Or shall we share our lives over the time we spend? I'd rather do both, but you know thats hard. So why don't we find a place. We can share our lives forever. I know such a place. Follow me, to the end of time, and we shall get there, together, without a scratch, with mended hearts.
G. Carver Rath
G. Carver Rath
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The lock
Feb. 1st, 2006 | 07:25 pm
mood: crazy
There is a lock preventing me from doing what i need to do. My life is being chained. i need to find the key to get myself away from it. The key is attainable, but it is a ways away. But i will get there, i will break the lock, and run away.
G. Carver Rath
G. Carver Rath
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our new world
Jan. 28th, 2006 | 03:56 pm
mood: flirty
We've made it. The perfect place. Ones mind begins to wader if they look too close. It gleems with white. We are standing on a hill, overlooking the lake. Our hair flow in the wind. The sun, blue as it is, sets with a deep shade of purple. We have made it. Our Utopia awaits. Let us dance till dawn.
G. Carver Rath
G. Carver Rath
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Here we are
Jan. 25th, 2006 | 06:09 pm
Today we arrive, to the place we have been yearning to go. The place where we can intertwine, and ecome one. But we are too unique for that. Today, we defy the laws. We break the rules set for us. We shall, as one would put it, question the establishment of laws that have kept us apart for so long. We shall rebel. we shall love. And by loving, we shall break the binds that tie us to the system known as reality. we shall make our own world. We shall make our own rules. the most important of all thing in this new land: is love.
So here we are. Shall we take off again?
G. Carver Rath
So here we are. Shall we take off again?
G. Carver Rath
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today..
Jan. 22nd, 2006 | 02:29 pm
Today we fly. Today we soar. Stay close. Stay near. We are determined. We are eager. Our love guides us. Our passion fuels us.
We soar.
G. Carver Rath
We soar.
G. Carver Rath
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One..Only One
Jan. 20th, 2006 | 11:28 am
mood: giddy
My thoughts dig deep into your soul, so you can feel what i feel, and see what i see. Fly with me to te farthest place, so we can stay and lie there together, for eternity. Bring only the simplest joy, a joy so pure and magical, it shall last you a lifetime. so come and fly away with me to my place of dreams, my place of thoughts, where we can join as one, on mind, one life, one heart, one love..
G. Carver Rath
G. Carver Rath